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Wednesday, January 16, 2013

I Will Die a Saint

Yup! You hear it right!

I haven't been writing anything in this blog for a very long time. In fact, I avoid my Raw Thoughts and Feelings altogether. There are so many issues in my life now to keep on a straight path, or deal with the rawness of them all.

My back and shoulders feel heavy with problems and extra added responsibilities  for more than a year now. I went into a panic attack, tugging and tearing myself between this and that. Moreover, I don't have any idea why I am in the situation I am in.

At 50 something, I should be able to have things in order, settling down with lighter duties, and being able to schedule my day accordingly, but that is impossible to do when I have doctor appointments or errands to do every week. Moreover, they are not even for me!!

Sure, I bite my tongue and buried my feelings. Sometimes, I curse it with the F word, and let the "whatever" took over.

Lately, I want to disappear like dust, or just move away to another State to change my luck and to run away from my duties. of these days it will come true..Maybe, I will just close my eyes, pray for mercy, and accept my fate!

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  1. I hear you loud and clear. Being 75 I have to say , most people I know go through times like this.
    Sometimes it's a hurricane, family member what ever you are not alone. I think you are a very capable person and am sure things will level out soon.
    Know this I wish you love.

  2. I'm so sorry that you've been going through such a rough time! xo

  3. Days seem to get shorter and shorter and nothing gets accomplished for ourselves. Hubby yelled at me because I had not taken the pop bottles in during the summer and I explained that I am always running here and there between going to work - but he will not accept my excuses. They aren't even "my" bottles. lol I grab his as he will toss them out.


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