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Thursday, July 15, 2010

Z is for Zeal

My aunt was an exceptional nun with her constant quest to save abandoned children, and helped the homeless people around the orphanage. She took them in, gave them a place to stay, fed them, and turned their lives around.

Her zeal (passion, fervor, keenness) was well known throughout the area, and she hardly ever turned anyone away. Many had taken in because of her kindness, generosity, and caring. Yes, this was the image people had of her. A nun that loved to serve God's people! She was a real daughter of God.

For most part of my life, I didn't understand why she couldn't love me, or treated me half way decent as she had treated others. The only reason I could conjure up was that she resented me for being a handicap and a burden to my parents, especially her sister, my mother. There was something about my being that just ticked her off. It might not be a valid reason, but it was the only answer I could think of.

I couldn't make myself smaller in her eyes so she wouldn't notice me. I avoided any run in with her when I spotted her in the distance, but my destiny had its own way. She could always summon for me any time, for any reason. I felt zero love, zero caring, and zero kindness from my aunt, but I knew she could love, care and be gentle.

Everywhere my aunt was assigned to, she left a legend of a great nun! She built up an orphanage from virtually nothing, and she was a great contributor to the society. Abandon children had a safe haven, homeless people had a roof over their heads, and her seminarians became great humanitarians!

I admired her strength, her courage, and her devotion to do the work for God's people. Her zeal for her ministry was extraordinary, and inspired many young seminarians. I wanted to be her and I wanted to be a nun like her at one point, without the mean streaks of course!

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  1. Inquiring minds want to know...when did you leave the orphanage? Did your aunt ever change in regard to you? Your tale would make for a wonderful book.

  2. Hi Polly--My aunt had never change her mind about how she felt..

    I think I will write a conclusion for next week Alphabe-Soup link up!

  3. It is sad that she didn't realize the joy she would bring to your life and hers by being nicer.

  4. I didn't realize your aunt was the queen mother of the orphanage. I don't understand how a self-proclaimed Christian could be so kind to others and forsake her own. This religion has mystified me since I was a child.

  5. It's baffling. Perhaps there was bad blood between your aunt and sister. My mom and her sister hate each other, and it's not for any good reason that I can see. It's faintly ridiculous since they are both over 70 and stubborn as anything.

  6. Sometimes we cannot control what others feel or do but only have understanding and love for the good that they did.

  7. Hi Mumsy! I really admire all the great things you have to share about your aunt regardless of how you felt she treated you. A wonderful trait indeed.

    Also, love your photographs! Are they yours?

    Happy z day to you!

  8. Nuns...they're a funny lot. Many stories similar to this from my mom who went to school run by the sisters. She couldn't understand it either. Some really great ones too though. People in general are hard to figure out, nuns or not.

  9. can't believe that no one saw through her, just goes to show that anyone can fool people :D

  10. Mumsy I have to say with all the truly terrible things you aunt did to you, you are a remarkable woman. You have such grace in being able to see the two sides of your aunt. It just amazes me. I look forward to the conclusion next week.

  11. How odd that a woman with such goodness in her would not extend it to you. I wonder, with Julie, if there were some issues there with your mother that got projected onto you somehow.

    Sorry you had that experience.


  12. Such senseless cruelty. And from a woman who obviously had the capacity to do so much for so many. It really does not make any sense, and what a pity that she could not show some of that compassion and love for her own blood. I'm looking forward to your conclusion and the story of how you came to leave the orphanage. Kat

  13. Such a touching story. I would love to see this compiled.

  14. Wow, unfortunately, nuns are human, too. It's just so sad how she would take out her issues on you, though. It must've been even more difficult for you when you saw her doing a lot of good to others. I'm so sorry. But it sounds like you have risen above the pain she gave you. God is good! More blessings to you!

  15. Mumsy, this real life drama of yours would make a great book.

  16. I just have no admiration for a woman who couldnt love a little girl aching for it....what was wrong with her.....sometimes I worry that you still think it was something wrong with you....I am telling you, it was her and had nothing to do with deserved to be loved and still do.....

  17. Blogging has helped all of us, pull back the veil and peek beneath. Emotions, ones that are buried deep...and still sting, mixed with love...are ones that confront many of us.

    Your Z post is highly personal.
    Thank you for sharing that.

  18. It's amazing that you can say all those wonderful things about her when she treated you so badly. You must be of great character. Way to go! And I agree with the other commenters that you need to tell the whole tale.

  19. you certainly had a very difficult childhood, having to be with your aunt. and it is always interesting so see how far from the truth public perception can be ...

  20. Mumsy, thanks for visiting the Mystery Meatloaf blog...

  21. Agree your story would make a great book – look forward to hearing more next time.

    It’s been so interesting reading great posts like yours over the past 26 weeks!

    Happy Alphabe-Thursday,


  22. My guess is that she was very angry and resentful of her sister (your mother) and took it out on you because you were a defenseless child.

  23. You have been brave to share this story over the course of this weekly meme. I admire your strength.

  24. Your posts of this time in your life...I can't imagine the heartache and growing up as a child facing all that you did. If only you were able to get an honest response as to why she felt this way and act the way she did with you. ...It would not have made those memories less hurtful, but maybe it would have explained a little more.

    Blessings & Aloha!
    I agree...this would be an interesting book. You have such vivid recall of these times.

  25. Oh Mumsy. I have no idea how you can regard this Aunt with admiration for anything at all in light of what she did to you.

    I admire that quality of forgiveness and ability to find good in a lot of bad.

    I have so enjoyed hearing your story each week on Alphabe-Thursday.

    I can honestly say it has been a journey of the heart for me.

    Thank you for that.


  26. Better, Mumsy, it is us that say thank you for sharing your story. There had to be incredible inner strength in pouring this out to us but also a healing. Pray tell you are healed a little more.

    You have a wonderful writing flare, as well. I look forward to other insights from Mumsy!

  27. Mumsy I think there was a strength in you, that your AUnt only wished she had half of...she could not understand your resilence and tried to beat it down...she never did...there was a sense of jealousy in her over you....I know that sounds strange, but after reading all your stories that is my for gone conclusion to her....


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